When I was 17, my parents and I had a severe car crash. They didn't make it. Since then my aunts took care of me. The twist is that I had no idea about this until 5 weeks ago when I woke up from a 10-year coma. And that wasn ́t the most surprising thing the doctors told me when I woke up. Somehow, I was pregnant. WHAT!
My aunt freaked out when I told her. The first five years she visited me weekly, then she lost that frequency. I can't blame her, she has a life and I didn't give any sign of waking up soon. Now she feels guilty about what happened, she shouldn't. There's only one culprit here and that's the bastard who raped me.
I demanded a list of every doctor, nurse, or whoever attended me and treated me for the last 10 years, but the hospital refused to do it. They said too many doctors treated me and that they need a police order to give that information. BULLSHIT.
I wanted to sue them. My aunt had a different idea: hire a private investigator to find out what happened and then sue them with a much clearer chance of winning, I agreed, I had something bigger to think about it, what would I do with the baby?
Should I keep it? Give it away? Abortion? I don't ́t know… I mean, it ́s my baby, though I didn't want it. The last time I was conscious I was freaking 17 years old. I didn't do anything to have it except lie in a bed. My life will change so drastically with any decision I make. Would I be more depressed if I give it away, abort or keep it? Adjusting to life after a coma is already hard enough. I don't ́t know, I didn't even finish school. I don't deserve this.
Having the baby inside me was torture. It was a reminder that someone raped me, who knows for how long or if it was just one guy. Thinking about it makes me sick. But it's not crazy to think that he did it more than once, in 10 years he must have a lot of chances. I always cry when I think about it. I entered the hospital virgin and now I have a baby coming.
My aunt lent me her computer because I wanted to look for information of similar cases online. I thought I was the only one dealing with this and the thing that crept me the most was finding a Reddit support group of women all over the world who suffered of unconscious rape.
Some psychologist and psychiatrist wrote on the forum. Apparently, the people who commit this kind of crime suffer from a paraphilia called somnophilia, they get sexual pleasure by fucking / having sex with someone unconscious, that means rape. And they also said that the worst thing about this paraphilia is that are very common. Statistically, some of the people you know may enjoy these things and you don't even suspect.
The P.I. found some interesting information. He confirmed what I feared the most: I wasn't raped by just one guy, a male nurse and a doctor did it...Still, that wasn't the worst thing. Many people of the hospital knew and they did nothing to stop it. Some thought that it was plain gossip, others were sure about what was happening and choose to remain apart. It has been happening for the past two years.
He got me the names of the Dr. and the nurse, William Watson and Clint Willrich, my aunt and I went to the police to report what happened. They assured us they´ll find them, my P.I. also wanted to continue investigating, without charge. He felt committed with me. A week has passed and neither the police nor the P.I. has found new leads. William and Clint disappeared from the face of the Earth.
I hope they ́ll find them, even if that doesn't take away the real problem. I ́m still pregnant. I started going to therapy in Planned Parenthood. I think they're helping me… But it's not enough, almost no one can truly understand me.
I´ve been talking with other girls of the Reddit group. We´re making an online support group for these cases and we’re organizing a meeting next week to protest in front of the hospital with a local feminist group. We need to stop this! In addition, we demand the hospital administration to resign from their job. No girl should leave a hospital raped nor pregnant. WHAT THE FUCK REALLY! It’s so crazy just the fact that I have to say that.
What I ́m going to ask you is not easy, but I need it… Can you tell me what would you do in my position? Would you have the baby? Would you abort? Please tell me. Therapy is good, but I don't know what to do yet.
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I know it's a really emotional and upsetting situation. But I believe keeping the Baby is the best thing. Because once you see that Baby your gonna love it. I'm not a Real Mother because I'm only 15 but I raised my 4 Siblings. Even with my Age and me being in High School I would keep my Baby if I got Pregnant. Regardless if the Dad would help or be in the Baby's Life or Not.
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