In this video I’d literally just left the store where my dad worked to face him so mad my body was radiating after years of feeling so much fear I couldn’t and Wouldn’t stand up for myself.uncontrolled wild anger took me inside.where he dipped into the back as to not face me.at first I was feeling courageous and mighty the enemy was running.But after I walked out I was humbled and felt bad that I’d led him into hiding my dad. I’m applying fear and fear isn’t something god put in us so🤷🏾who’s outta law him or me?running in that room not facing me fear?Or am I wrong for him feeling like he did.however my guilt and shame led me to prayer wanting relief.His mom my rock my granny kept the peace and encouraged me to love and honor my mother and father.Now I understood why and the proper definition of those mother and father titles on a spiritual level with Jesus paving the way.But I needed to talk to who sparked that unconditional love for her son my dad.Because there is only one father for me.And for years he’d gotten fear and distorted respect.Woke now using skills i learned to talk it with a grandma been gone almost ten years but getting my relief and closure.Sorry for the camera but I needed to share this process. I’m not a actor just a man trying to get things right with god and my life to prepare for my first child I needs gods favor amen.I wanna love the with the love Jesus has for me,he really set this broken man free.amen
Talking it out at my dads moms gravesite looking to let go of the feelings sour attached to her son
In this video I’d literally just left the store where my dad worked to face him so mad my body was radiating after years of feeling so much fear I couldn’t and Wouldn’t stand up for myself.uncontrolled wild anger took me inside.where he dipped into the back as to not face me.at first I was feeling courageous and mighty the enemy was running.But after I walked out I was humbled and felt bad that I’d led him into hiding my dad. I’m applying fear and fear isn’t something god put in us so🤷🏾who’s outta law him or me?running in that room not facing me fear?Or am I wrong for him feeling like he did.however my guilt and shame led me to prayer wanting relief.His mom my rock my granny kept the peace and encouraged me to love and honor my mother and father.Now I understood why and the proper definition of those mother and father titles on a spiritual level with Jesus paving the way.But I needed to talk to who sparked that unconditional love for her son my dad.Because there is only one father for me.And for years he’d gotten fear and distorted respect.Woke now using skills i learned to talk it with a grandma been gone almost ten years but getting my relief and closure.Sorry for the camera but I needed to share this process. I’m not a actor just a man trying to get things right with god and my life to prepare for my first child I needs gods favor amen.I wanna love the with the love Jesus has for me,he really set this broken man free.amen
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